Saturday, July 4, 2009
You

Was on the bus to Parkway Parade and I happen to recall Jayden's latest post on friends when I had this sudden thought.

Can friends really last forever?

It seems impossible. I have lost contact with almost all my primary school mates. We sometimes see each other at places like the bus yet acting as if we've not seen each other.

It seems people change their clique wherever there is a environment change. Like when I got to 3/ 4G, I think I almost stopped talking to those that I was closer to when I was in 1E/ 2F. Seems like people just naturally get suited to a new environment and have new friends and new cliques.

And what they have in the past seem to just go behind their heads.

Being a single child is not easy. Loneliness is what I've been hiding. I always wanted a sibling, or someone that I can put my absolute trust in, a very close friend. Just like a... brother/ sister. Therefore I tend to spill my feelings and secrets to people I believe I can put my trust in.

However, I tend to be afraid. I'm afraid they will walk away and never be back. I'm worried that after our secondary school education, we part our ways and the memories we share together shall come to an end. I wish that time would stop. I wish I can dwell in the presence of those who I rely on to live each day.

I'm really glad that I've been talking to Ken Woo a lot more than before. We used to only talk in band and seldom talk to each other when in school. Although we were in the same lower secondary class, I hated him like hell as he apparently is very childish and enjoys bullying people. However, it's been pretty different now. Except that he refuses to tell me things he tell Jean. *tsk tsk*

To get some friends, I confess I used to change myself to a certain extent to be able to mix with them. However, now I see things clear, I am who I am, people befriend me for who I am.

And thank God, I received an answer for my question earlier...

Quote from Ken Woo's note; 3O PEOPLE!:
Are you going to know 3(Don)forever?
I sure want to.


I was thankful. For God have granted me with such a friend.

And although Mr. Marcus Goh has been apparently using me for his own benefit e.g Writing the lyrics to Poker Face in the morning. I enjoyed his presence in my life, being a great friend and there when I need him.

To people who I regard as a friend, I hope that our friendship can last out of secondary school. It's a pity to lose you guys. Furthermore, you're what that is pushing me on, to walk out of what I'm in.

To still be able to stay close to people I'm close to now in the future, I'm shall be contented.